FOR THE LAST TIME

This may be the last thing that I write for you
Can you hear me smiling when I write this, for you and only you

As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now

You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now I'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
Is this what you need, how you end up let me know.

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when
I'm gone
This is the last time

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal, now I say it.
Somehow I knew that It would be this way,
Somehow I knew that It would slowly fade.
Now I'm gone, just try and stop me now.

* if u really know me...you will understand this....

**p/s: from now on i will be starting back my blog with the stereotype version again

my convocation day

hi guys...
well its a bit late but who cares..haha


recently i juz graduated my diploma and my convocation was super awesome..
well for this entry i will be showing more pictures than word..haha (enjoy it)


well this are my batch graduates.. congratz guys...

see this pic.. we are holding three angry birds characters bouquet..haha it was a total koinky dinky...
this is the hall.. and the one taking the scroll rite now is me.. cool aite..

my most proudest moment of receiving a excellence award...damn it felt good


and my mom was obviously super proud of me..haha love u mom..

these are my best friend from high-school.. they really surprised me by coming to my convocation..thx guys..

and last but not least " I DID IT" yahoo!!!...
well tat was for my diploma..cant wait for my degree convocation...


i think tats all for tis time ..till we meet again.. bye-bye :)

PERFECTION...

There are certain people you just keep coming back to
they are right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to them now your in question

And all at once the crowd begins to says
"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same"

Maybe you want it maybe you need it
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But they won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out



And all at once the crowd begins to say
----Sometimes---
"We'd never know what's wrong without the pain"


Maybe you want it maybe you need it
Maybe you've started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come

rebound or re-bonded?

its not that im on going all lovey-dovie~~

but it came into my mind recently because ive talked about it with my friends a few weeks ago.

REBOUND - do you know what does this mean.. let me illustrate to you..

see that?? its the catch you make after a wrong throw.. but im not talking about basketball, im talking about ur life...

see we often think that once we came out from a bad relationship or a good one, we need to quickly find a new one in order to get over the past.. in this case the new partner becomes the rebound guy/girl.

in every thing that we do , there must be a consequences well now at this case the rebound person will get him/her feelings hurt and that will crush their feelings.. see now due to our own selfishness we hurt another persons feeling and now we are the bad guy..

you might realise that every "get to know" moment is sweet.. so be carefull not to make wrong decisions that may lead to the rebound person.. because in the end you will realise that u never loved them..you just need them for a momentarily period..

and for the next in-line girls/guys:

remember just because you have a crush on them you cant force them to return your love... make sure you help them forget the past and then try to see where things are going...

dont freak them out by being so direct..play the "im cool" +"hints" game...they love it.. and that will slowly recover them from the black ragedy of their past..

well guess thats all for now..

bye2 folks..

guess ur self---- 10 things you need to figure out

1- im not ready at all.( but sooner i will be..it has to be the right person ).
2- i love being what i am rite now.
3-you need to defeat my past.
4-i need to know you exactly for who you are ( not for who you are being)
5-dont push me to like you..coz it only takes a second to like you but my life to forget you..
6- i love the chase so dont confess until i propose..
7-if i like you and you like me *lets keep it for ourselves
8-let it happen not make it happen..
9-im not like i used to be ( somebody screwed me before )
10- make me feel interested by being nice not by competitive.

2011

at first i thought you were gonna be great..
but you hammered me with your first blow

and then slowly you killed my days by making more blows and hooks on me.
you made me suffer for 4 months.

you already took away my physical abilitys
but im not gonna surrender

rite now im starting to collect my parts.
and now im ready for you.

i believe god is very just
all there is left to say is bring it on!!!

- i LOVE you

here is the thing about me.

i never grown up with a father, it has always made me feel incomplete
deep down in my heart i always wanted to have a father like my friends. it has always made me envy of them.

recently i was having my worst breakdown in my life.. it kept thinking shouldn't it be good if my father was here to tell me everything is gonna be OK..
despite i never knew how is my fathers character, because he passed away when i was too young.

i always wanted him to be my hero , well act he is, but its just a comforting thing to say to myself.
i dont know why am i writing this now. my father had passed away for about 19 years.
i never said that i missed him out in public nor to myself.
but rite now i really feel like i need him..

dad, daddy,ayah,abah,baba
i dont even know what i will be calling him if his still alive..
but one thing that will never change is , he is and will always be my dad.

dad~~
I LOVE YOU
please watch me, coz ur only son will stride his best to give your family a better life..
ill try my best until the day comes that i will step in your shoe.

ABDULLAH "1 may 1960~ 1 may 1992